What is it with those guys? Hmm wonder if women do that too? So far since there have been about 7 or them this week. They are mostly nice but apparently just out for sex. Can't say that for sure though. Not all are young either or at least if they are they don't admit it lol. Not at all sure I want to go there..but then again not sure I don't either. One wants to meet me. I don't really know anything about him yet. But I suppose meeting in a public place would be safe enough.

I really wish the guy I am interested in would chat a bit or want to meet lol. I have no idea how to go about gaining his interest. Perhaps I need to just be more interesting. I think I am pretty boring. I don't know what to say half the time. I think that shows on this blog. That might be more from a feeling of constraint. I might start posting more personal stuff and not making it public..or for friends only. It seems to be more a matter of all that white space scareing the thoughts out of me than of not being able to think of things to say. Or they get tangled between my head and fingers or I think it will sound stupid so just don't say it. I am thinking now that I shouldn't care so much if I sound stupid...it could be that I actaully am stupid..and if so then its best people know that. And if they like me anyway..well then they must really like me. Seperate the sheep from the goats lol. I seem to remember the folks that always liked me best and stuck around the longest were those that saw me at my worst. Not sure why that is. Perhaps its the common humanity showing. They can relate to that because they have been there and felt that way.

The guy from the personals I really liked did answer an email. It was a closed ended email though. Just answered the questions I asked. I expect that means he really isn't very interested in starting a conversation. Wonder if he would be interested in sex LOL. Any ideas out there on how to interest a man? I have been out of it too long. I am not sure I remember how to do this. Of course talking to those guys online I am getting more conversation practice. But that isn't quite the same. I guess I should meet a few of them..get in some real life practice. Any thoughts on this? Or on anything else? I don't even remember what all I have put in this entry now. So I suppose I had better go to bed. Goodnight