Went out to moms and my grandmas today. Felt really homesick when I was leaving. Still do a bit. Mema had moved more of my stuff(or mom did). She started doing that the week after I left. If she had left my bed alone I probably would of gone right back there lol. Probably would of moved back in there a while back if not for that. Sort of feel unwanted. Of course she did tell me to leave in the first place...later said she didn't mean it that way though. With her these days there is really no way to tell..she doesn't remember what she has said half the time. And she has gotten to where she says things mean...so that they sound mean I mean LOL. I know she is worse now than when I left even..so not sure I could handle living there now..but I do wish things could be the way they were...never gonna happen though...she is getting worse..and getting older..and so are all of us. Things change. Remembering the really good times makes it worse. It was good for me all in all I expect. Guess I can't know right now...no clue where the heck I am headed. They say when you don't know where you are going..any road will get ya there.

I am eating too much too lol. Guess part of it is a sort of cabin fever. At least at home I did used to go outside and walk with mom a bit. When it was warm anyway. R said he didn't want me walking around here. He seems to think it's a bad neighborhood..I don't know. I may go out to the park and walk some. Hmm or go out to moms more often lol. Thinking about checking out Curves too. There is one here..I could use the excercise..and meet some folks too.

Ok guess that's it for now. Cya later Have a good weekend!!